Something has gone catastrophically wrong when you cannot physically stand your family. I am now at that point. But perhaps that is giving them too much credit. Surely they can't be responsible for my involuntary bulimia, immense hair loss, drastically increased insomnia, and being in a constant state of panic. They are not the sole cause of my mental and physical breakdown, they are just a big big part of it. Uncharacteristically, my mother is trying her best. She is not really telling what she thinks either way but is telling me to be prepared and toughen up for the shit storm that I will be receiving from the rest of my family. Speaking of which, my father was the first one to jump on this bandwagon. Since day one he was against me coming to American University. We couldn't afford it, it was out of my league and so on and so on. Being the rebel that I am, I was hell bent on proving him wrong. I couldn't. I even told him this...Sort of. Our phone call consisted of him telling me why I was wrong for wanting to transfer to Framingham State University. My (possibly over dramatic) response was "jesus christ dad, I am telling you that you were right all along. What more do you want from me?" One of his main points was that my priorities are messed up. My top priority is to get an affordable education and not become a drug dealer. I think they are pretty well organized. Also, he said that kids at FSU are being forced to stay at hotels because they don't have dorm rooms. I don't know if this is true or not but the fact that he is trying to scare me into agreeing with him.
The only family I have in DC thinks I am making a mistake too. First is my uncle Joe. 1) He graduated college a good thirty years ago. 2) He is a professional blogger. Enough said.The other person is my cousin Jimmy. He and I have come from two different families and this is something I recognized from a very young age. To put it nicely, Jimmy has grown up with a silver spoon in his mouth. His father and my mother, though siblings, are extremely different. His father is an extremely successful entrepreneur and businessman and republican. To be frank, he is a republican party's wet dream. This of course was all transferred to Jimmy, who was an undergraduate at Boston College, is now getting a masters degree at Georgetown and has a job with Wells Fargo in the spring when he graduates. Oh and my favorite conversation I had with him a few days ago surrounded the Occupy Wall Street movement. According to Jimbo over here, the american people deserve to be in this situation because they should have been educated enough to understand what they were signing x years ago. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. I had a total Jon Stewart moment. So hopefully now it is clear for you to see how he can't understand where I am coming from.
I guess I have run out of steam as far as this rant. My application is in, test scores paid for, and transcript is sent. There is nothing they can do about it. No matter what I do I will end up broke or broken.
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