Therapy in Blog Form

Dear You,
       It wasn't supposed to be like this. We weren't supposed to be like this. I never believed in love but I had wanted you to prove me wrong. It is pretty bittersweet to be right. I don't want you anymore but you won't let me go. You tell me I am not a stunner. Is it because of my scars? You better fucking remember who gave them to me. I'm not beautiful but neither are you. There is a darkness to you now. Maybe it was always there and I've only recently started to see. Do you feel like a man?  I love you so much I cry. I hate you so much I shake. I hate you for what you did to me. Of course I love, I probably always will. But you destroyed me. You showed me that people aren't worth it, to love them. They make you feel beautiful and special and then they screw you over. They will make you feel like they don't give a fuck about you and that you are worthless. You destroyed my vision of love. Fuck you. You ruined me. My years of laughing and young love are over. I'm done. And as much as I hate you, I hate me too. For always making excuses for you. For letting you treat me like this. But I can't leave. You've made me too afraid to and I've let myself be intimidated. Maybe one day I'll knock you on your ass and walk away. Maybe one day I'll stop being so goddamn afraid. So, even though we are together I am dead on the inside. Just now that you shot the bullet that killed me. How's that for true love you bastard?
                                                             Sincerely- Me.